More Cancer

Posted by Deb | Life in General | Friday 29 October 2010 1:42 pm

The situation of my friend RivkA of whom I told about here yesterday is still critical, and today I heard that another friend of mine was also diagnosed lately with breat cancer. I don’t know yet what her situation yes, or what level is her cancer. Both women are mothers of 3 (like me), but RivkA’s children are older, and the kids at least have a father who can take care of them. This other woman, whose name I won’t mention here as not everyone around knows yet about it, is a single mother like me, and her kids are even younger: all under 8. Luckily she lives near her parent, so they are probably helping to take care of the kids, but this is frightening. I feel for her and for her kids. When you are the single parent of kids, it is so much responsibility to bear even when all is well.

Anyway, this brings my life and troubles into proportion. I think I will fix up an appointment with a doctor soon and have a full check-up myself.


Now I checked RivkA’s blog again. She had passed away this morning. Baruch Dayan Ha’Emet. (Blessed is the True Judge. That is what Jews say when they here about someone who has just passed away).

RivkA Matitya z"l

Read about her in the Jerusalem Post Today.



Posted by Deb | Life in General | Thursday 28 October 2010 9:01 pm

I have known RivkA for many years now. Probably almost 15 years now.

When I first met her, I saw a nice, wise, happy and energetic red-headed woman. She is what we call in Hebrew a Gingit (red-headed). I liked her, but we were not close.

Then she moved away, and I didn’t see her often. When I did see her, she told me she had breast cancer. Thankfully she caught it early. She had her Chemo, and she seemed over it. She spoke about it very openly, and I admired her.

Then it came again, and this time it was very violent. It was level 4 cancer. But RivkA, as always, optimistic and energetic, didn’t give in. She lived her life, took care of her kids, and inspired everyone around. You can read about it all in her blog, Coffee and Chemo.

Last week the situation became critical. She is now in the hospital, with family and friends around, all very concerned.

Please read her blog, but not only from the last week, where her friend posts about her condition. Read what she wrote in the last few weeks and months. Watch the videos of the inspirational talk she gave about cancer.

If you are the praying type of person, please pray for RivkA bat Tiertzel. If you are not a praying person, please just send any positive, healing thoughts you can her way. We need a miracle now.


On the Roller Coaster Again

Posted by Deb | Day Trading Journey | Wednesday 27 October 2010 10:11 pm

Today I lost again.

I really didn’t feel like trading today, and I didn’t even try trading on my usual time (around when the market opens). But later, when I had some time, I decided to force myself to trade.

It didn’t go. For a very long time the market was stuck. It went up and down one pips. I guessed the market would finally go up, but didn’t want to bet on it. When it finally did go up I decided to wait on on a support line which it already passed and enter in a long position. Well, the market went down instead, and I lost $75. I had actually moved the stop-loss in the middle, as I remembered how two days ago my stop-loss was too small.

I should have quit at that stage, and I intended to. Then I got stubborn and tried one more position, in which I lost another $50 over one contract.

When I originally took a course in trading, the teacher said you should go into a position only after you have everything planned: When will you go in, when will you quit, what stop-loss size is the ideal, etc. I should probably start to practice that, instead of getting into positions so impulsively.


Today Was a Better Day

Posted by Deb | Day Trading Journey | Tuesday 26 October 2010 5:34 pm

I again wasn’t sure I want to trade today, but then decided to give it a try. I traded of course on the demo, so no money was on stake.

I first opened the platform on my usual time 15:15 Israel time, which is now 9:15 NY time. That means only 15 minutes before the official trading start. That doesn’t leave much time, but for me it is optimal: After I take home my daughter from school, and before taking my son. That is anyway a time I cannot work much. But I really should stop trading that time. I like it because it forces me to trade in a short time, so that trading does not spread over my day, as it had months ago. But it isn’t a good idea to trade when you don’t have time. If I could rely on my self-discipline, I would be able delimit my trading without these external limits.

Anyway, the market was obviously going up, so I did not have to hesitate too much. Though had it been on real money I would have been hesitant, since the market was fluctuating and it went down a bit before going up again, and as my real money account is so limited now I do not let a big stop-loss. Anyway the market went down, then up, and then my daughter came to disturb me so I exited the position with $25 on one contract.

Then I had to go out again to pick up my son. First I thought I would call it a day already, but I decided to be stubborn and try again. I opened the platform and sure enough the up movement was not yet over, the indicators showed it will most likely still go up.

I entered again with 2 contracts, and exited shortly after with $62.5. So the total for today was $112.5 over 3 contracts. Not bad. Pity it wasn’t on live trading.

That’s given me a boost. I of course am not yet ready to go back to live trading. My account is too small for taking any more risks. But I will try the simulator for the near futures. I have no idea yet when I will go back live, I do not want to hurry. I hope I will be disciplined enough to take my time.

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Should I Give Up?

Posted by Deb | Day Trading Journey | Monday 25 October 2010 7:46 pm

I am really feeling down today. This trading stuff is not working for me. I feel I am not good in it. I am not good in making money.

I don’t want to give up. The memory of the 6 weeks in May and June in which I went straight doing more and more money gives me hope this is possible, but somehow since then I keep losing.

Today I forced myself to try trading again, on the demo, though I didn’t feel up to it, and the result was a loss of $50 (luckily only a virtual loss). I hesitated entering a position when the market was obviously going up, and then entered in a short position when I though it will go down. Probably with a bigger stop-loss margin I could have gotten out without losing, but as it was I lost.

I had to renew my Sierra Charts subscription in order to trade today, and I hesitated at first if I really want to do it. Then I did, though I feel I was just throwing away more money.

Now that I did renew the subscription, I will probably feel I should be trading. I hope I will feel better about it in a few days. Training myself to work with more discipline is probably something that will be good for me also in other areas of my life, but currently it seems so impossible.


Wife Beating in Islam

Posted by Deb | Politics | Thursday 21 October 2010 9:38 am

I have just seen a short video clip which has left me speechless. See this:

Wife Beating in Islam according to Sa’d Arafat, a clerk in Egypt.

If there are any Muslims reading here, I would like to hear your comment about this.

In Israel, we have had recently a few cases of Muslim women murdered in the city of Lod, each one of them seems to have been murdered by male members of her family for reasons of “the honor of the family”. It seems that in the Arab culture, murder is a honored occupation.


At A Crossroad

Posted by Deb | Day Trading Journey | Tuesday 19 October 2010 12:03 am

I think I will have to go back to trade on the demo for a while. If I will continue now, my account will soon be wiped out.

I took this day off from trading, and am not sure yet about tomorrow. Possibly I will take a few days off, and then return to the demo. I want to be able to work with more discipline, there is no point in going on like this. I will have to try and train myself.

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